I've only written about my job on this blog once before, nearly four years ago when the start-up I was working with came alive. The start-up was a group of financial people with a particular type of expertise, and it formed to find a company in exactly the right kind of trouble, buy the company, and fix it. We did that, and in July and August of this year we had record sales and skyrocketing operating profits.
In September, Fannie, Freddie and WaMu tanked and it killed us. We lost so much money in two weeks that there was no saving us; we've been dead men walking ever since. Whatever we were, we were not too big to fail, and the federal bail-outs passed us by. Today I cleared out my office and am going on with my life.
I have to formulate better answers to questions I will inevitably be asked, like "What do you want to do?" Right now, the most meaningful answer I have to that is, "I want to have an impact." What impact, to what end, I haven't a clue. For the last couple of years, I've been going through the motions and collecting a nice paycheck. My father always said that there are no problems, there are only opportunities. I believe that absolutely, and the opportunity I enjoy right now is to find something that engages me fully, that gets me out of bed in the morning excited in a way I haven't been for years.
I've been working on the next chapter of my life for a couple of months now, though not with the earnestness I'll doubtless apply next week. Starting Monday, I'm going to begin a hopefully-not-endless round of networking lunches and coffees and cocktails where the conversation will be, embarrassingly, entirely about me. Here's what I've done; here's what I like doing; what do people like me do in your world? What do you think I should do? Hopefully, out of that will come clarity and, before the next tuition bill comes due, a paycheck.
I'll keep you all informed. It's probably not going to be that interesting, but it's my blog and I can do whatever I want.